Someone asked me a day or two back, why my posts have an undercurrent of pathos. Someone else sometime back had asked me why should my posts always be so philosophical and another person few months back asked me to write ‘happy’ posts.

All these are fair questions. But then, there are people, who ask a totally different set of questions after reading few of my posts, questions like, “So what’s wrong ?”, “You don’t seem too happy ?”, “Is everything fine?”

Now, I don’t really know why people end up getting such impressions. But I find it a little far-fetched to draw conclusions about one’s life merely by his blog posts. At least, not if blog posts are your most reliable source of conclusions.

For me writing is liberating. So often, when you come back home weary from work or you are spending a really lazy afternoon, you want to do something that can unshackle you, free you, let you and your imagination soar into sky. For me writing is that liberation. I am not writing any autobiography here, most of the times it is just a random thought that become a fertile ground for an entire story or some other times it’s a train of thought that may lead you to write your next post. You just pick up a thought flying past you and tell yourself let’s see what treasure it holds. It’s not like I get back home and then write about events of the day or my psychological state. I agree experiences do have a major role to play in what you think or what you write, but trust me it’s not always recent experiences and they don’t always play a lead role. There are times when what I write mirror my mindset at that point of time, but there are equal number of times when it doesn’t.

So...

If I write about fear, it doesn’t mean that I am scared tonight
If I write about loss, it’s not that I have just lost something precious
If I write about distress, it need not imply that I had a bad day
If I write about yearning, it doesn’t mean that I am missing something in life.

Can’t I take a creative license and write things, create characters and weave stories that are no more than just my brainchild. Why my stories need to be put under microscope to find out where am I in them? Why can’t I just be seen as a creator and spared the hardship of being a protagonist?

Also, I admit am no versatile writer – am just a plain amateur blogger afterall, I can’t write in each and every style. So if my writings border on abstract then may be that’s my style, if my writings are always searching for answers then that’s how I like to shape them, if my stories are about yearning and loss, may be that’s the mood I prefer to write about.

But why am I giving explanations at all?

When I write here, I write because I want to and not because someone is going to come and read it up. I write because I like writing and not because I like to be read. I wondered for a while if I should take away the link to my blog from orkut and gtalk but then I didn’t want to be dictated.

So nothing gonna change here, mood, style and content would remain just as it always was and if someone thinks I am going through troubled times, humour yourself – but for God’s sake don’t ask me for confirmations ;-))