I wonder why at times I act the way I don’t really want to. Actually in most such situations, I don’t act – I react. React to people, situations, perceptions, prejudices. But it’s always a reaction. There ain’t any justification for the reaction but I just feel forced to behave in a certain way, which on any other day in any other situation I would definitely not choose as my preferred course of action.

Sometimes people irritate me and I just want to be mean.
Sometimes situations frustrate me and I just want to bulldoze my way through them
Sometimes I am taken prisoner by my own perceptions and prejudices and then I do as they want me to do.

It’s not that am washing my hands off my behaviour, it’s not that I act like that in some fit, rather my reaction in such cases seems the best response to me in those moments. But once those moments pass, I realize that I could have actually done better than that.

But may be once those moments pass, their intensity gets lost somewhere and so is my view on appropriate response.

May be, may be not.

Guess, reactions by definition are instant natural response to a moment and that’s what I should let them be, till they change for better themselves or I change for worse…