Past has its ways of catching up with the Present or to put it in other words, Present never succeeds in getting past the Past.
In mathematics there is a concept of Markov process, it means that state of a process in future will depend only on its current state and not on its state in the past.
How often I wish life should have been a Markov process, Life will only be dependent on what it is now. All those who say live life as if this moment is the only moment in your life that matters are no philosophers but just mathematicians who loved Markov.
But in real life Present is always a function of past. You can't just clean a slate and start afresh. Every scribbling at the corner of the slate, every drawing made while you were thinking something else, every story that you started but could not end....they all are just there on that slate and u can never wipe it clean.
And difficulty is if you are aware of this , then you just keep thinking before putting chalk to the slate.....and that makes you overcautious. It just takes away that spontaneity out of one's life. And if you are not cautious then it may just leave little space on the slate for making something pretty in future.
But isn't it our past that we treasure most, why do we keep telling everyone that best moment of life is one I have already lived. Why what is no more in my control, is something i want to control most?
Maybe if life was like a Markov process , people would have enjoyed the life more but might have treasured the life less. While life could be looked forward to but there wouldn't have been anything to fall back upon.
And that reminds me of one of my favourite lines from Hugh Prather's "Notes to Myself"
-Sid
Song Recommendation for the day:
From movie (Hazaaron Khwaishen Aisi)
Baawra mann dekhne chala ek sapna....
Baawre se mann ki dekho, bawri hain baatein
Baawri si dhadkanein hain, baawri hain saasein !!
Baawri si karvaton se neendiyan kyun bhaage....
Baawre se nain chahe, baawre jharokhe se, baawre nazaron ko taknaaa!!!
In mathematics there is a concept of Markov process, it means that state of a process in future will depend only on its current state and not on its state in the past.
How often I wish life should have been a Markov process, Life will only be dependent on what it is now. All those who say live life as if this moment is the only moment in your life that matters are no philosophers but just mathematicians who loved Markov.
But in real life Present is always a function of past. You can't just clean a slate and start afresh. Every scribbling at the corner of the slate, every drawing made while you were thinking something else, every story that you started but could not end....they all are just there on that slate and u can never wipe it clean.
And difficulty is if you are aware of this , then you just keep thinking before putting chalk to the slate.....and that makes you overcautious. It just takes away that spontaneity out of one's life. And if you are not cautious then it may just leave little space on the slate for making something pretty in future.
But isn't it our past that we treasure most, why do we keep telling everyone that best moment of life is one I have already lived. Why what is no more in my control, is something i want to control most?
Maybe if life was like a Markov process , people would have enjoyed the life more but might have treasured the life less. While life could be looked forward to but there wouldn't have been anything to fall back upon.
And that reminds me of one of my favourite lines from Hugh Prather's "Notes to Myself"
Problem with me is that I analyse life rather than live it.So let me stop my analysis today.....will resume it some other day.
-Sid
Song Recommendation for the day:
From movie (Hazaaron Khwaishen Aisi)
Baawra mann dekhne chala ek sapna....
Baawre se mann ki dekho, bawri hain baatein
Baawri si dhadkanein hain, baawri hain saasein !!
Baawri si karvaton se neendiyan kyun bhaage....
Baawre se nain chahe, baawre jharokhe se, baawre nazaron ko taknaaa!!!
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